wooooooaaahhhh....... yyyaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy

this weekend has felt slightly like a roller coaster.
Well I say that, but I've never actually been on a roller coaster. So it's what I would imagine an enjoyably rollercoaster ride would be like...

one time in the 7th grade the student council went on a trip to joyland. i rode the music-go-round with my friend amber sutton. when it was over i went and threw up the merichino cherries i had at lunch that day.... i never ventured to a big ride because of it. and sometimes merichino cherries gross me out.

anyways. back to this weekend.
I won't give you a play by play but, suffice it to say, it was fun fUN FUN!
I felt like I was in my freshman semester of college again. There was mini golf, dance movies, music music music, and lots of laughing and talking. There was also a part where I cried. they weren't happy tears, but they were really good. I talked with my God a lot and He broke my heart over a few different things. I enjoy His teaching and presence more that wards can describe.
My heart feels full.

At the same time I feel overwhelmed. overwhelmed by good things and other things. work is full of tasky tasks and stressy stress. I feel it encroaching a little on my, up until recently, "non-work" life. but I guess they were never completely segregated to begin with.
overwhelmed by all the amazing books i want to read, and all the knowlege that lay in store.
overwhelmed by all the new people in my life and fantastic relationships that are ready to be made. by all the prayer that will go into these new found friends.
overwhelmed by the state of leadership i find myself in. it's a state that came without petition, but feels completely right, but not easy by any means.
overwhelmed.
but not overtaken and not consumed.

I'm taking my work team down to go to a petting zoo next week.
how often does that happen in the corperate world? I feel like sometimes it's my place in this monster of a company to do random things such as that to fly in the face of "the man".
"the man" wouldn't be caught dead in a petting zoo. "the man" would snipe the little animals from afar. some days i really can't stand "the man". what did the animals ever do to him? all they do is what he asks. they sit in their little baxes and turn in the reports he asks for. even though he never really even looks at them before they go in the circle file. poor little animals. all they want is some food and warmth and maybe an extra bit of attention? is that so much to ask? huh? is it?

like i said...